This week I did something I have never done before; I was in a commercial*. No I don’t have an agent, I haven’t taken acting classes, and NO it was not for a cheesy TV add for my church. It was for the Colorado Springs Tourism and Visitors center and yes, it will air nationally.
How did this happen? I said yes.
A few weeks ago I posted about how hard it is to write during the summer and my son’s failed crusade against an avocado pit. What I did not tell you is that one week after the boy got his stitches, I was in urgent care with the other male member of our family, Hubby is fine now, but did give us a scare. By this point I was so tired and frustrated I was ready to give up, but in the wrong way. I wanted to give up out of anger because I felt the world was against me and not allowing me to get done the things I wanted to get done. I was having a tantrum and telling life, ” I’m taking my ball and going home and you can suck it!”
Thank God for good, stable friends. My friend, Betty told me that during the summers it was probably best to stop planning. In essence, she told me give up – but the right way. “Summer is time for adventure” she said, “and without an adventure, what will you have to write about?”
With her good advice in mind, I packed my goals, plans and routines into a box and set them on the shelf until school starts. Then I waited for the magic to begin… and nothing happened. Do you know why? Because I was still saying no. In my mind, I still had too much to do. I have been so used to saying no to things due to lack of time, lack of interest, or being too tired that I was still saying no. My favorite reason to say no was to say I’m not ready. Do you do that? Do you say no to some things because all the pieces don’t fit together well enough in your mind for you to feel confident doing something? We tell ourselves:
- I don’t know enough.
- I’m not smart enough.
- What if I look like an idiot?
- I need more money.
- I need to lose weight.
- I’m just not ready.
In the pile of excuses I was giving out to not do things, God hit me back with this:
Farmers who wait for perfect weather never plant.
If they watch every cloud, they never harvest.
Fine! It was clear God wanted me to say yes more often and to stop waiting for my perfect circumstances.
Here’s how this changed me. Before God spoke to me this happened…
Rushing through the grocery store parkling lot trying to finish my weekly errands by a certain time, I was approached by a local TV reported asking me if I would like to be interviewed regarding our city’s pothole problem. To be fair, its more than a problem it’s a nightmare, but my immediate thoughts were, I am on a schedule and don’t have time. I don’t have any make up on. What if my friends see me? Doesn’t the camera add 20 lbs? Could people see that my roots need to be colored? It was clear to me that I was not ready to be on TV and the pothole nightmare would not be a cause I would champion today. ** If you now have the song “You’re so vain” in your head, that would be appropriate.**
And Here’s how I’ve changed…
I get a call from Colorado tourism at 8:12 PM on Monday night asking if I can bring my family to shoot a commercial at Cave of the Winds 6:30 on Tuesday. Again my thoughts, The camera still adds 20 lbs. My roots still need to be colored. Will there be a stylist available to me? What if there isn’t and I have to do my own make-up? Am I ready to be on TV? It’s still clearly a no, I’m not ready, BUT WHAT THE HECK, WHY NOT? I called the family together, we did some laundry, thank God there was time for that, and planned to meet with the production team in less than 24 hours,
Here’s the best part, it was so much fun. In saying yes to this adventure, we were able to meet some great people, see a Colorado land mark we had yet to cross off our list, spend quality time together and were given season passes to Cave of the Winds by the very generous general manager. We wouldn’t have had any of this if I said no.
I’m now looking forward to rest my summer wondering what other adventures are on the horizon as I continue to practice saying yes. So far, I’ve tried new things, retried old things to see if I like them any better, opened up my house to lots and lots of people even when it’s not perfectly clean, gone to things I never would have thought to go to, and changed up routines I thought were set in stone and honestly, it’s been liberating.
Living a life of yes may not leave a lot of time to write, but I gives so much to write about.
And now, some photos from our shoot…
Seriously, if you ever get to Colorado Springs, Cave of the Winds is a fascinating trip!
* The commercial will be airing during the Colorado Springs Stage of the USA Cycling Pro Challenge airing on NBCSN